Forever Changed

Since I have come back from the girls conference my whole world has been altered. I got off the plane and told my mom that I'm going to go back next summer for the majority of the summer , then I'm going off to mission work. As if that wasn't enough I told her that I'm going to become a massage therapist instead of a dentist. I got home and called my boyfriend and told him everything has to change. I told him that we have pursued each other more than God and the Lord is my number one right now. His question was where does that leave us? He thought I was breaking up with him. I guess that is how most would see it. I told it's back to the beginning. When we waited on God for every detail. I told him I'm going off to missions and I don't know when. My thought was that he wouldn't pursue someone with such plans. It seems he might but as I told him "where this leaves us is up to you. I am pursuing God." Our fate is totally dependent on God's plan. Yet we are more together than we have been in a long time. We truly are back to the beginning.

So I'm not trying to make this post about my relationship with Jason, I just figured that might be an area where if it was any shorter people would freak out (and you still might). It is my desire to be with him forever but only if we love God more than we love each other. 

Yesterday I was in Physics class and the teacher talked down on faith. I felt my king prodding and my heart saying, " I've given you new direction. Why are you here and listening to this? leave." I was nervous and scared. How could I just walk out? I said a prayer for the teacher in my mind then got up and left. The moment I was out the door I was filled with joy. The real life adventure had truly began. I was taking a stand for my prince. I am too weak to absorb such statements in this time. I have no room for doubt in God's power. When I am stronger God would probably want me to handle such a situation in a different manner. I am becoming ever stronger in him as I learn to take the steps he asks of me when he asks them. Each step of faith shows me and him, " I stand for you alone. You gave your life for me and I'm giving it back. You gave your blood for mine now I am willing to die for your name if you ask." Many people may think this is too extreme, but what Jesus did for us is extreme. The least I can do is return the favor. 

Forever His,

                        Kristi