a different kind of day

9:10

I've been praying for freedom. Freedom from what others think, freedom from my list of things to do, freedom from just about everything. I had become a slave to school, work, and what others thought of me. Today was a day of deliverance. My entire day was filled with peace. I took my anatomy test and didn't really worry about the score. I went to work and had fun with the kids. I came home and didn't run to my school work. I'm learning to realize that there are more important things and I really can stay connected to God even through school and work.

There was this baby crying at work and I just wanted to make him happy. I knew what he really wanted was some love so I picked him up. It didn't stop the tears even as I bounced around the room with him in my arms. Then he looked into my eyes and we just stared at each other. I fell in love with those beautiful blue eyes. He had stopped crying as he stared at me, he seemed to be mezmerized by something. When his finger touched my lips i made a kissing sound. Finally a smile started to form at the corners of his mouth. So I made tons of kissy noises and then he smiled and laughed. The joy a laughing baby can bring is priceless. I wished I would never have to let him go. I don't think I can ever have enough children. I can't wait to be a mom.

10:40

So I bid on a set of 6 disney dvds. The moment I did I thought, " I really shouldn't be spending money right now." Then I flipped to a blog I follow. It's a 16 year old that believes in helping orphans. After listening to the song that was playing and reading her blog entry I hoped that I would be outbid. I decided it would be better to take that money and use on orphans. I said a little prayer and flipped back to ebay. I was outbid. I looked in my purse and I had exactly the amount I had bid. Pretty cool, huh?